Some Journey

My princess

Sydney has the honor of being the flower girl in Jen and David's wedding tomorrow, along side Naoki, our pastor's son, who took Joseph's place as ringbearer. Once Joseph learned there would be a room full of people at the wedding, there was no way he was going down that aisle. You can not believe how excited Sydney is, though. Tonight was the rehearsal and she loved every minute of it. I greatly appreciated the evaluation Don Waltermyer, David's father, gave me of Sydney. He complimented me on Sydney's behavior, and said that what he found to be so striking about her was that she had so much poise, and yet she was still a kid at the same time. Those of you who know Syd will probably agree that is a pretty good assessment.

I didn't want a girl. I didn't really want kids, but if I had them (one or two, of course) I only wanted boys. The reasons are far too complicated and I'm too tired to get into it, but the bottom line was a lack of faith. If God gave me a girl would he equip me to raise her and love her? And so her middle name is Grace. Because, PRAISE GOD, I am not in control of my life, He is. Praise God that I did not choose whether my children would be boys or girls, He did. Praise God that he did not answer my prayers, and chose to bless me with a gift I did not know I would want. Sydney is such a joy. She is so rarely difficult, and she delights me daily. She has actually made me enjoy being a girl and doing "girly things".

I'm looking forward to our day at Libby Lu's getting her hair done tomorrow before the wedding. And I can't wait to see the photos Matt takes of my Princess! And how cute is she going to be with this handsome ringbearer to escort her down the aisle??

Mako and I are secretly hoping that we might see the two of them walk the aisle together again one day. . .